As you might have noticed I haven’t published anything here in a week or so. I was on vacation, but in the past vacations have been the most productive of times or me.
Not this time.
Not that I wasn’t t writing, I was writing a lot. The problem is, when I went back and read the stuff I wrote it was so negative that I really didn’t think it belonged out there for world wide consumption.
To use an archaic phrase, I’ve become prone to bouts of melancholy which in turn have sapped the energy for creative work right outta me.
Lots of things going on which are contributing to this lull, which I won’t go into here.
Suffice to say that this blog, usually a source of pride feels like a millstone around my neck these days as I try to come up with things to write about, only to find myself generating a wretched pity party of prose that has me wondering, what’s the point, especially given that when I go back and read it, I find it so full of spelling and grammar errors that any claims to writing are invalidated immediately.
See what’s happening, I just did it again.
So… I don’t know. The energy isn’t there to make the time. Will it get better? Probably. And I’ll keep writing l know, it is after all, what i do. But for today anyway, I’m out.
Thanks for listening.
I know it’s not the same thing, and I don’t even know why you are having bouts of melancholy, but I hear ya. Over the past months, in some ways I’ve had all kinds of time, one might think I would have, therefore, had plenty of time for writing. What I didn’t have, though, was much creative energy. It’s just starting to come back, after months and months. Over a year. Anyway, I know I haven’t shown my face in awhile (so to speak) . . . even my masked face
. . . but I wanted you to know I’m still out here reading.
I hear and completely understand. I had such a funk for a while, plus an incident with a “real life” reader (someone from home), that I ended up stopping all new posts on my old blog, & started afresh on a new one.
I do miss the old one, to a certain extent, but the new blog has been refreshing in its emptiness. I’ve even started writing again, & have entered a local contest.
If you want to see the new digs, I’m at http://mydandelionwine.wordpress.com
I know how the muse-less feeling is, so I empathize. Here’s to the swift return of inspiration, & the diminishing of melancholy.
All writers occasionally go through these phases of funk, I think. We are humans, for goodness sake, and our creative energy ebbs and flows. I predict you will return from your respite (preferred word here) wittier than ever. In the meantime, thanks for being honest regarding your absence.